From Recovery to Singularity

This posting is from, and at the Step One Miracle site (emphasis added):
"My second experience with this Step happened almost a year and a half after my sobriety date. The drinking and obsession to drink had been miraculously removed from my life but this time I felt my mind consumed with thoughts of all kinds and the reflection I was receiving from all those around me was dark and vengeful. I tried everything I once believed would work, talking with friends, trying to figure out ways to solve my problems one by one, implementing every way I had done in the past I used to get out of a funk, and praying.
"Suddenly it dawned on me that I was totally unmanageable (with some help and hinting from my sponsor) and I was trying, flailing, and drowning in every way to remove my own thoughts from my head.
"What seemed to be total devastation and hopelessness was actually a wake up call that I was avoiding by trying to solve the problem.
"I gave up. What once appeared to be a condition of living where I thought I could manage a least some things became crystal clear that any effort on my part yanked me into despair. The gray existence became completely black and white, total light or total darkness, me unmanageable- me manageable.
"And in that place, which could only seem embarrassing weakness, all those around me came with experiences of how great I looked, their hopefulness by seeing me, their relief that finally someone said what they felt.
"We were all free, I couldn't manage myself, and I couldn't manage them. I was totally defeated, defenseless and vulnerable and yet totally free from every binding restricting painful idea through the realization that by my own self will I was powerless.
Instead of moving off what felt like an uncomfortable point of fear I was forced to stand still through my revelation that any attempt to do anything was just my effort to manage the situation.
"What an incredible experience.
"How did I get so blessed? What a huge moment that something so brand new could be opened up to me, so different, so beyond all I thought would solve my problem. I came to the point where I knew nothing but desired everything; I was ready to learn it and did.
"For you this step will be as difficult and hard and easy and free as you want or need it to be. How much do you want to hold on? In the end it doesn't matter because even the smallest speck of the recognition that you are unmanageable in all your affairs will lead you to a moment you might have never come across before. You are here, right here and now, choosing again. Here you are, unmanageable and through your self-will, powerless.
"What an amazing opportunity, an incredible exciting time! The choice is yours. Whatever it is your holy perfect self is waiting to be revealed to you now. We're standing in the light welcoming with fully opened arms. All the resources and help are with you now. And everyone in and out of time and space, your perfect Self, is cheering you each time you come to this point: totally defeated, totally powerless and totally unmanageable and ask with total disregard, total mercy and desperation:
" 'Please help me, right here and now, in this place I find myself.' "